hisdarkmark | Fortieth Hex - [Written/Action]

[When he first opens his eyes, he's immediately blinded by the sunlight and he hisses loudly, rolling over in the dirt to shield his eyes. He doesn't move for a moment, barely bothering to take in what was going on. It was obvious he was back. His clothes were still torn and disgusting from the last draft, and he had a few dried scabs on his arms, but otherwise...he seemed fine.

Sitting up, he gropes around the area for his journal to check the date.

Shit. Just how long was death supposed to last in this place? He supposed it wasn't too entirely unusual, considering how long Arumat was gone when he had been murdered. He adjusts himself on the ground, shifting the way he's sitting and reaching in his pocket for a pen. The writing is scratchy and scrawled, but the words are legible.]

So that's what it's like.

[He doesn't care. He doesn't care to read through everything and find out what he's missed. He's on his feet and carefully walking toward house 25, already knowing that Tsuzuki and Hisoka were waiting for him and most likely could kill him again for being dead for so long.

The thing was, however, was that he couldn't figure it out. He couldn't seem to wrap his mind around what he's lost as a penalty. Maybe he got lucky and they didn't take anything at all. That would be nice, wouldn't it? But it seemed highly unlikely, especially considering the nagging in the back of his mind that something was missing. He'd just have to work it out later.

Hmm...hello house 26. You seem awfully familiar, and not in the way that it was the house some of Draco's friends live in now. He used to spend a lot of time in that house, didn't he?

No. Maybe not. He couldn't imagine why he would...must be mistaken.

It isn't until he's almost at his front door that he takes his journal again, scrawling out a few more words.]

...am I the last one to come back then? Suppose they really do save the best for the end.

[ooc: Death penalty explained briefly here]

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I didn't. [SILENT'D.]

Does that mean you haven't even asked him about what happened?

I don't need to ask him about what happened.

Actually, you do. We need to hear what happened so we can find out why it took so long.

Then ask him yourself.

I will.

[He takes a deep breath, crossing his arms over his chest.]

I know you were scared that he would leave you. Why aren't you glad you got him back?

I wasn't scared!

Mhm.

But I mean, is it really worth it? You have the chance to make him want to stay, so why are you trying to chase him away?

He left first. He can stay gone.

It wasn't his choice. You know how drafts are.

Except he was trying to get himself mindwiped before he left. He doesn't want us.

[He knows quite well how rejection feels.]

Sometimes that happens. It's not an excuse for treating him badly.

I'm not treating him like anything.

[Tsuzuki touches Hisoka's head softly, as if trying to offer some kind of comfort that his words can't give.]

This isn't what you want, Hisoka. You don't want to look back on this and realize you pushed your best friend away, just because he was feeling depressed.

[He lets the touching happen because he's been letting a lot of touching happen lately. Why break the streak now?]

I don't bother having regrets. It's a waste of time. [Regrets are for private broody times never to be shared.]

[It must be tiring to push everyone away just so you can protect yourself. Then again, there is no reason to keep up the facade when he's talking with Tsuzuki about this.] If you didn't have any regrets, you wouldn't be a shinigami, 'Soka.

[He runs his fingers through the hair at the nape of his partner's neck. It's the kind of casual caresses he doesn't think that much about. He catches himself halfway though it, drawing his hand back and placing it around his shoulders instead.]

I don't think he tried to hurt you on purpose.

I don't have any regrets about this.

[He leans back into Tsuzuki's hand, thoroughly all right with being coddled when things are this crappy.]

[Tsuzuki still feels a lot of fondness for his partner, so if he cuddles close he's bound to get a head full of pleasant feelings, tinged with concern. He simply continues to be near, knowing that Hisoka will take the silent offer if he needs it.]

[He sighs, wondering if his partner is able to imagine the consequences of what he does. Sometimes he wonders if he can't.]

He's your best friend. Doesn't that count for something?

[He tries not to think too much about it, honestly. Tsuzuki's felt so conflicted for so long that there's not much Hisoka can do about it without starting a fight again. And he's very much not in the mood for fighting.]

It did until he left. I'm not going to chase after someone who left.[Tsuzuki stayed. So clearly Tsuzuki is the superlative option.]

[As much as he'd like to be happy about it, Tsuzuki imagines it's a way for Hisoka to punish Draco. It's not about them much at all.]

[So he tries not to think about it too much, either. He knows that his partner will hurt if he manages to push away his friend, so that's what he's focusing on.]

You're only punishing yourself. You know you'll be miserable without him.

I was fine without him before. I'll be fine again.

[Does Tsuzuki want him to instigate cuddles? Because THERE CAN BE CUDDLES. >|]

Don't talk like that. You haven't lost him yet.

[If there is cuddles, it will only make Tsuzuki worried that Hisoka's more hurt by this than he tries to let on. That kind of activities are not on his mind right now, because the Draco situation is currently his top priority (and mixing his own feelings with that is a recipe for disaster).]

[Well too bad, Tsuzuki. Because he might be nudging Tsuzuki back towards his room for a proper spoon. Deal with it.]

I don't want to talk about this. Can't we just sit somewhere and calm down?

Ok, we can do that. Did the spellcasting tire you out?

[It doesn't take much for him to get that hint, scooting backwards until the back of his legs hit Hisoka's bed. It's as good a place to sit as any.]

[Except for the smell of things-recently-burned. Still applying pressure to get over to Tsuzuki's room.]

Always does. It's been a while since I had to create a barrier like that.

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