Thirty-Ninth Hex - [Written]

[hisdarkmark]

[As usual, Draco has once again gone and made himself scarce from a majority of the village as he works out more of his inner dilemmas. First and foremost, there's Hermione. She's most definitely, definitely not the same Hermione and it's freaking him out.

Secondly, he's officially given up on searching for Caroline Forbes. After running into other vampires...it's safe to say the blonde will never show up again.

And thirdly...? Even with his power, even with his abilities to turn into a coyote or produce patronuses or blow things up, he's finding it isn't enough to make him happy.

Recently he's returned from a mission, but he couldn't help but constantly think about the last experiment. He'd been convinced he was someone else, and he had absolutely no memories of who he really was...and it was nice. He was able to function like a normal human being again. Normally, he would make an elaborate announcement about his return, but this time...well, he's already pieced together what's happened in the village, and he's not sorry he's missed the tornado. No, instead he's entirely focused on what he's determined to find out. When he opens his journal, he's only got one sentence he'd like to share.]

What do you reckon it takes to bargain with our captors to permanently erase memories? Just curious.

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[lostinmyway]

It's because all of your memories make you who you are, the good ones and the bad ones. If you only have your good memories, then you aren't you.

[And that would make her sad, because she loves Draco just the way he is.]

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[hisdarkmark]

But wouldn't you suppose if a person only has good memories, they'd have a better and easier time creating more good memories and thereby be a better person?

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[lostinmyway]

[She thinks about that for a moment, taking her time before answering.

Finally, quietly, she says:] But then the good memories wouldn't be as special.

[If someone only has good memories, then how do they know to treasure them?]

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[hisdarkmark]

Just seems like backwards logic, Grune. Sorry.

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[lostinmyway]

[If she had her memories, she could argue her case so much more eloquently. Now, however, she simply doesn't have the words. In the end, all she can do is write:]

Please don't turn into someone else. I love you just the way you are.

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[hisdarkmark]

[SOOOOB GRUNE DON'T SAY THAT.]

...trust me, Grune. You'll like me if I change anyway. I'll like me a lot more if I change, so everyone else is bound to.

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[lostinmyway]

But I like you right now. Why don't you?

[She just doesn't understand.]

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[hisdarkmark]

It's a long story. Maybe I'll explain it some other time, okay? [And he kind of hates himself for saying this--] Just remind me.

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[lostinmyway]

I will. I promise. [But unfortunately, this is one promise she just isn't able to keep.]

I hope you feel better soon.

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[hisdarkmark]

Thanks, Grune. I do, too.