[It must be tiring to push everyone away just so you can protect yourself. Then again, there is no reason to keep up the facade when he's talking with Tsuzuki about this.] If you didn't have any regrets, you wouldn't be a shinigami, 'Soka.

[He runs his fingers through the hair at the nape of his partner's neck. It's the kind of casual caresses he doesn't think that much about. He catches himself halfway though it, drawing his hand back and placing it around his shoulders instead.]

I don't think he tried to hurt you on purpose.